messed up: over time

Was supposed to do my analysis for my coral data today but during startup, my computer rants: "virtual memory low"!

the heck. so now i am using my officemate's pc because my dumb (damned) computer can't connect to the internet (perhaps Gods way of saying: "Concentrate. Work, work, work!")

So i am currently uninstalling some installed craps in my pc, reckon it will help. Or so i believe it would.

Left with nothing else to do save burden or, worse, kill myself by waiting for the craps to be trashed out of the crappy pc, I am currently devouring the net for anything to do.

So i am now blogging -- guess this blog deserves to be attended this time after being sort of abandoned to weeks. But my conscience keeps babbling: "Hey Fred, the government is paying you for more by 'working' overtime.You are supposed to WORK!" Hell, yes, i am tormenting myself. Can't help it. How it pains to be conscientious!

Nevertheless, been working my ass off this week, been a good employee lately. I've never been late, save 8 minutes, for this week. A record high after being formally employed here in the Center for (uh, i'm counting... one, two, three, fo..) eight months!

Now I am bound to change. I am supposed to. Can't keep on complaining about all the problems and issues that troubles the government, more so with my co-workers, without me changing myself first. So I am helping myself.. Got to change a lot of things, especially in my outlook in life, working, and living.. Got to have a better perspective, see life with less hostility, meekly, gracefully.

Listening to Rihanna's Disturbia.. singing along my anathema with all airs i can muster: dum, dum, de, dum, dum, de, dum, dum... dum, dum, de, dum, dum, de, dum, dum...

Perhaps, Love

Love does not and cannot conform with the norms set by man, nor it can be hindered by unworthy and worldy obstacles; rather, it shines when suppressed -- fighting back with burning strength and fervour, it transgresses through time and space -- defying boundaries, ultimately, it never fails to forge into its true beautiful and glorious form such that when it touches the heart of anyone, he/she cannot deny the pleasure nor dispel the magic and power it beholds...